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One of the more classic forms of covert rejection is when one person greets another; they are nice, sweet, and full of smiles of acceptance, but when they have their first opportunity to gossip about person two – they do. If a person is confronted about the gossip, they typically will lie or rearrange the story to justify their rejection. Another common covert form is spoiling children. Parents “love” their children so much that they indulge the child, which results in the child forming a playing God that is demanding and expectant of special privileges. Here is an example: A few years into my marriage, after being informed as to the dynamics of rejection, I asked my wife what ways her parents had rejected her. To my surprise, she said that her parents didn’t reject her, and she has no memories of such rejection. Even though I carry an enormous amount of respect and honor for her parents to this day, they quickly admitted that they did not provide enough discipline for their beloved Janie. The truth being stated, she was rejected whenever they avoided a confrontation with her, particularly when it came to discipline. This carried over into our marriage, for each time I was immovable in fronting her with truth, she felt overtly rejected by me. You see, those who have been covertly rejected growing up frequently feel overtly rejected by those who hold to a strong form of fronting truth with others. A person who is rejected usually has inward and outward reactions. The diagram below is a list of the inward reactions. It doesn’t matter if the person comes from an overt or covert rejection past – many items in this list can be found.
In my undergraduate studies, we were asked to do a paper on our life story. Mine was titled “Why the Boy Cried Wolf.”Throughout my childhood, I was known by my siblings and most likely others as the boy who cried wolf, a childish term was being a “tattle tale.” I spent so much of my young life “tattling” on my siblings, thinking it would protect me from their rejection. Little did I realize at the time – it made it worse. Since I felt many of the items listed in the above diagram, I truly believed that no one protected me outside of my mother, and this, of course, would be the person I tattled to. In the meantime, my siblings grew to dislike me more and more as time passed. Then, when my siblings would demonstrate further acts of rejection, I believed it to be proof to justify my inward reactions to rejection – it was their fault. “You reject me; I’ll reject you.” REACTING TO REJECTIONThat set off a chain of reactions. Reactions not only on my siblings but soon transferred to others. I found my life filled with resentment, bitterness, rebellion, distrust, and inability to accept love. It was a shame, though, and love was what I was searching for the most. Thoughts and feelings of rejection believed to be true, sooner or later, are brought to the surface. The above diagram shows the reactions toward others. People living in rejection as a lifestyle, like I was, may even reject those who have not rejected them. It creates a vicious pattern of rejection. Remember that all of these reactions are a form of revenge. It took some serious discipleship to help me discover how my rejection pattern offended God. All these attitudes and reactions formed in me were now pouring into my view of God the Father. I began believing the worst kind of lie – that God was rejecting me exactly the way others were.
God loves us and proves it by sending Jesus. He does not reject us, yet at times, we think He is joining in on the rejection of others. The above diagram shows us how a person reacting to rejection ultimately rejects God and the church for the rejection of others. People reject God when He doesn’t meet their standards/laws. This is why we call it playing God. People who reject God as a lifestyle need to double-check their Salvation and/or their beliefs about a loving God. Rejecting God comes from setting standards/laws/laws on God. All indwelt Christians need to ask themselves why they reject the One who gives hope, deliverance, and forgiveness - the very things for which they blame others. When I did this evaluation, I began to view God the same way His Son views Him through me. NEXT: Reversing the Rejection Cycle. The End Times Chronicles is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. Thanks for subscribing to The End Times Chronicles. Your paid subscription helps us advance our non-profit’s mission. Dr. Stephen R. Phinney is dedicated to providing quality media and publications that advance the Life of Christ. Paid subscribers receive free eBooks, media content, and other free stuff.Hey, fellow writers/readers, would you be open to buying me a cup of coffee? Check out this fun way of supporting my writing: https://bmc.link/drphinney
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